Thursday, October 4, 2018

GUILT and SHAME

GUILT
SHAME

These are choices. And you may describe them as feelings or as illusions, or whatever fits your perspective.

"Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free."
-Jim Morrison




Once the feeling of shame undertakes you, you begin to lose control of and sense of responsibility for yourself. Now, this experience can easily snowball into more of itself, which is why it is so dangerous. If we step into the present moment, we realize that it is we ourselves who create and perpetuate such feelings. IMO, we must get to the ROOT of it in order to free it, set it free, let ourselves heal, breathe, and relax into beingness.
No matter what you've done or your mind THINKS you've done, convincing you how "bad" you are and how you deserve to suffer for your wrongdoings-
I can assure you that (self) forgiveness is the first step to healing, not only yourself, but the entire universe. When we practice non judgement upon ourselves, we loosen the ties to suffering that we had somehow learned to depend upon. Nothing is necessarily wrong with suffering in and of itself, but if its something we claim we don't want, yet we continually experience, then perhaps its worth taking another approach towards our whole situation.
My idea of getting to the root of a problem is hardly of a selfish variety. Rather, we get to the root of the idea of sin in general and perhaps how it relates to our society's perpetuation of the righteous individual. Needless to say most all religious doctrines are practiced in complete hypocrisy,
there has been a great, deep, penetration of the idea of sin and morality into our minds and beings, which we then further adapt and apply to ourselves due to various factors within our own circles.
Wake up and recognize the patterns ! And catch yourself before you judge another again.

To be continued...

Feeling like I'm straying away from HD for now..  In flow

<3


Wednesday, October 3, 2018

Emotional AF Manifestor

This one goes out to all the manifestors out there who's (non-manifestor) parents try to control them and everything around them. That's probably all of us huh?
First of all, when we're not living by our designs, and trying to force things, it gets out of wack as most of us know from experience.
But when we're under attack from outside forces who are unawares of their own design, things get really out of hand. Perhaps it is my vulnerabilities that are being brought up for my own benefit-
My feelings of shame and guilt for the way that I live my life,
why else would I give any validation to the absurdities that are being sprouted at me?
I do my best to stray away from blaming others as I ultimately believe that we are each responsible for our own realities.
This being said, however, there are some people who live within negative and destructive cycles within their own realities, who, when given the chance, will bring others into that same reality as well.
I am doing my best to express myself free of judgement.
If we go further and take into account defined and undefined centers, we can see more clearly the negative energetic manipulation that can occur, even unknowingly.
I no longer wish to take upon myself the shame and the guilt and the anger of others. I truly wish to release myself of feelings of guilt and shame

What is the best thing these feelings have offered me? What is the greatest thing about feeling shame? This gives us the illusion of a moral compass perhaps, it makes us feel like there is right and wrong, and that we are accountable for our actions. Shame, however, no longer serves me, as it is a destructive and limiting interpretation of reality. Whence I am able to see my decisions and thoughts, experiences and emotions from a neutral perspective , through using great understanding and non judgement, the feeling of shame is rendered irrelevant. The same goes for guilt and for regret, and we hold onto these feelings as if "one day" we will do something righteous enough to alter them,
but this is all a trick of the mind
a lesson
we have created this. I have created this, asked for this, perpetuated this, and am currently writing this. I want to set myself free and move onto the next thing. I am ready to learn to live in abundance, freedom and acceptance. The next step I see for myself is a life lived completely in the present moment, without expectation nor judgement. I need far less than I think I need.

The purpose of this trip
of any thing
face your fears and vulnerabilities. own your choices. OWN YOUR CHOICES. start now. even to uncover the past and release any potential remnants of these feelings that we deem no longer serve us,
begin now,
as time is illusory.
own your choice.
to create your reality
in each moment
with your thoughts
and feelings
and environment
and body and mind and heart
FORGIVENESS
is the key
to unlocking a wisdom
that could never be read. researched. its only FOUND within


on taking responsibility for "the other"
as the self . I am responsible for this body, this heart, this mind, this soul , this energy. This energy is a fractal of all others as all others are a fractal of it.
we can recognize infinity , under any circumstance, but it is not up to ME to heal someone else. no matter what, unless there is a specific agreement for a certain interaction to occur.
if someones energy is pissing you off, DO SOMETHING about it,
or do nothing haha
your choice
you never really DO anything anyway. what is a decision, what is an action, what is a sensation .?.